A Moment in Destiny

Chapter 943 Have No Idea What To Do

Rae’s tears were still staying in her eyes and the tear marks were still shown on her face.

Marcel’s slender hand had reached over Rae. Then, his fingers gradually touched her face and gently wiped off her tears.

His movement was very soft and gentle. His finger was stroking her lips which were hurt by Reuben. His finger rubbed her lips gently and then he asked her with a gentle tone, “Does it hurt?”

Rae’s heart was touched and softened at that moment. All the ice that was from her deep heart melted by his words. His brief concern was just like the only little source of light in the darkness. It had made her alive and she could not behave as calm as the stagnant water as she did in the past anymore.

She cried. She was crying her heart out intensely.

She was even bawling.

Her tears were surging out vigorously and even Marcel’s big hands could not wipe off all of them. Rae was just weeping and her cry was going on with her low sobbing sounds which made people feel sympathetic when watching her crying.

However, Marcel did not hug her into his arms. He just helped her to wipe off her tears.

Rae was looking at Marcel through the mist of her tears. His brows were knitted in a frown and he was not saying anything. He just helped her to wipe her tears off.

He was not doing any other action and just stood in front of her.

Rae had learned about psychology and she knew that his purpose of doing the only action at the moment was to let her take the initiative. He wanted her to take the initiative to go and cry in his arms.

However, Rae was not that kind of person. She could not do that. She wished to do so but she was afraid. She was frightened and had no idea what to do.

However, Marcel was still doing the same thing. It seemed that he was almost acting like a robot that was helping her to wipe off her tears. He did not do any further movement. He was not speaking and just did that only action but he was treating her very gently.

Rae’s warm tears were flowing out from the gap of his fingers and yet he was still wiping off them stubbornly.

Finally, Rae raised her head and used her hand to pull the corner of his shirt.

She had lost her confidence and her hand that was pulling the corner of his shirt was as timid as a little animal.

Marcel was staring at her little hand and he still did not move at all!

They just kept standing there in such a position for a long while.

She was pulling his shirt and he was not moving. He did not stop her and did not do any further action.

He was just looking at her with his cold eyes. Suddenly, he reached out and his big hand clamped her neck instantly. His wrath was almost spurting out of his sharp eyes. He lost his control and roared at her in a low voice, “Damn it, why can’t you just take the initiative to approach me?”

Rae’s body was trembling. She knew that he was pissed off! She stared at him with her vision that was filled with sorrowful silence. She was trying to hold her tears back desperately.

There was silence in between them. It was an endless silence.

Silence had made people go crazy. It made people’s blood boil and made people’s feelings to be out of control.

Marcel glared at her in anger crazily out of the blue. He was roaring at her, “Speak! You just speak something!”

Rae went to Marcel and embraced him with all her strength. She buried her head in his chest and cried loudly.

She was crying so sadly like she was heartbroken.

It was because that she had seen Marcel’s wavering look through the mist of her tears at the moment. His look hurt her heart and made her feel sad as it seemed that he was in grief too!

Her tears were rolling down of a sudden. Her crystal clear tears were surging out of her eyes. Her tears had wetted his shirt drop by drop and her eyes were filled with despair. Her voice was hoarse and trembling, “Marcel, I love you! I love you! No matter you believe me or not, I really love you!”

At that moment, her desperate confession made his body stiff. His hand was not doing anything in the air. His hand that might want to stroke her back just stopped there and it didn’t move for a long time.

Rae’s whole body was totally limp after she confessed to him. She felt like she had gone for a battle even though she had never been to a battlefield. However, she could imagine that it was just like going into a tough battle. No matter she won or lost, she had defeated herself and she didn’t need to hide her love anymore. She had said out all the words in her heart.

She was still holding his waist without saying a word. She also stopped shedding tears gradually. It was just that her little sob was knocking on someone’s heart.

After a long while, finally, Marcel’s hand hugged her back gently!

Maybe Rae’s tears had stimulated his nerves which made his stone heart slowly softened. It might also be because that he was vulnerable and in a blue mood at the night due to a phone call from home. Anyway, he just wished to get consolation for his lonely heart at that particular moment.

“You love me?” After a long while, he asked her in his hoarse voice.

Rae leaned in his arms and nodded lightly.

Marcel grabbed her shoulders suddenly so that she would be facing him. He was holding her shoulders with great force and asked her in his indifferent voice, “Rae, how many words from a woman like you are real?”

Rae’s shoulders were gripped tightly by his hands. Her body was swaying like a leaf and she felt a bit dizzy. She coughed lightly, “You don’t trust me?”

Marcel let go of her and then he looked at her helplessly with some doubts, “I am not able to judge it. Rae, I can see everyone clearly except you. You have made me puzzle and make me feel that I am like an idiot who is being fooled by you!”

Rae was shedding tears after hearing his words. After a long while, finally, she spoke again, “I didn’t! Maybe you don’t trust me but I still want to tell you. I have lost my memories and forgot who I am. I was involved in a car accident five years ago and I remember nothing about my past. Everyone is telling me how Rae was in the past but I don’t remember any of it. I have been behaving myself for these five years. I don’t have any relationship with any man and I have never fallen in love. There was an empty space in my heart before I met you! I seem to meet you before this and I treat you different from others!”

Rae didn’t know how to explain it to him. Although the words that she said was not true, she was trying her best to figure out a way to break the deadlock and told Marcel the truth that she might not be Rae!

For now, it was just a test! She also had no idea how effective it would be but she just felt that she should make it a try.

He was not speaking. Rae continued to say, “Maybe I have met you five years ago before I was involved in the car accident but I just don’t remember it! My subconscious mind has told me that I might know you! That’s why I endured all the humiliations from you and didn’t hate you in the end! I agreed to be with you when you said so! I don’t have experience, I think you can also ensure that it was my first time that night! Therefore, all the words from Reuben and Mathew were not valid!”

After hearing Rae’s words, Marcel laughed sarcastically of a sudden. His laughter was wild and unrestrainable. It seemed like there was a trace of pathos in his eyes and his tears would be squeezed out from his wild laugh.

“Rae, your words are really powerful. It has even made me feel sorry for you if I don’t trust you! I think I would have really believed you if I didn’t know who you are! I was involved in an accident and I also forgot many things! Therefore, I believe that you have lost your memory and this statement from you is valid for me! However, I felt that it was ironic as you say that you were wronged by others! You did act that you were inexperienced that night but all these can be pretended and even the hymen can be mended! But you, I am sure that you are not a good one!”

He was staring at her. His low deep voice was suppressed with sadness and desolation.

He let go of her abruptly and then he watched her leaning against the wall after staggering a few steps.

Her face turned pale, it looked really pale!

He had forgotten his past. She did know that she lied to him about her memory loss but he had really lost his memory!

It was true that he was really involved in an accident and forgot Nat!

Rae fell in sadness and sorrow again.

If he still remembered Nat, his little junior who named Nat, maybe both of them would not be so sad now and maybe the situation would not be like that.

She had always felt that Marcel was approaching her intentionally but she didn’t know the reason for him doing that! However, she knew that his purpose must be something related to Rae and not Nat. For now, since she was not the real Rae, there was no way for her to verify it. Since he had already forgotten her, she would still be in the same embarrassing situation if she told Marcel that she was Nat!

God always liked to make such jokes. How could she feel relieved and go to explain it to him?

Rae was really in despair.

“You don’t trust me!” She spoke slowly. “Even if I love you, you still think that I am lying to you!”

She could throw away her self-respect and took the initiative to confess to him without caring much about the traditional reservation of women. However, he did not trust her!

So what could she say then?

“What do you love about me in such a short time?” His cold voice was coming slowly from the upper part above her head. His voice was low, deep and depressing. He was sneering, “You are so talking such ridiculous things. You love my performance at the night?”

Rae kept silent. Suddenly, she lowered her head and there was a surge of blood boiling in her heart. It seemed that all the suppressed blood in her heart was going to spurt out at that moment.

“If you love me, will you not tell me the truth and hide so many things from me? If you love me, will you be so mysterious and unpredictable which makes me feel so drifting and insecure? Is this your love?

You are just fooling me, aren’t you?” He spoke sadly and slowly got his vision back from her.

Rae closed her eyes and spoke in a low voice, “What about you? Do you approach me for love? If you are not frank, how can you request me for it?”

Marcel squinted his eyes dangerously. Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

“Marcel, I’m so tired. This world makes me feel so tired and exhausted. I have never felt so tired before!” At that moment, Rae felt very exhausted. The reality had made her feel exhausted. Not only that, their love was the factor that was even more powerful which caused her difficulty breathing and almost made her suffer from suffocation.

He clenched his fists of a sudden. Then, he frowned, closed his eyes and took a deep breath to calm himself down. He said, “You need men now, right? You saw that Reuben was coming over and then you recalled the happy moment in the past! You are so greedy that you want to get all the men in the world, is it?”

“Interesting!” Rae laughed lightly in sadness. “How can you say that? Marcel, don’t talk to me like this. If you despise me, let’s break up!”

An unprecedented panic was grasping his heart. He was gasping hurriedly and brokenly.

Her face was so pale that he felt that her heart was soaking in icy water for a while and then roasting in the fire when looking at her.

Slowly, he snorted coldly at her, “Only in your dream!”

After he finished saying that, he turned around and walked out. He left there very quickly as if he didn’t feel reluctant to leave her.

After that, Rae heard a ‘bang’ sound which was the slamming sound of the door in the living room. It was such a loud noise.

After she came out of the bathroom, she saw no one staying in the house. The smell of the smoke of cigarettes was still left in the living room. However, he was gone!

The room was empty and Rae was the only one who stayed there alone. The strange living room was a place that she was familiar with for only a few days. It was now so empty and she could almost see through it until the end.

She felt an unprecedented coldness and shrank her body suddenly.

Then, her tears started rolling down drop by drop when she looked down at her toes.

She just felt sorrowful all of a sudden. It seemed like there was something that had destroyed her nerves and pulled out all the little feelings in her heart.