ALWAYS AND FOREVER

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“Hey man, what’s up?”

Dean said walking up to me at our regular bar, it’s been a while I have saw him and I didn’t even think he would show up, as I thought he was still mad at me but when I called him, he said he was on his way and indeed he came, I stood up to shake his hands and sat back down nursing my drink.

“What’s up? You don’t look happy, did something happen?”

“Yeah, it did,”

“Okay, spill,”

“Kathy wants a divorce,”

I disclosed, I hated even saying the words, it tasted bitter in my mouth, I couldn’t imagine my life without Kathy.

“Okay, so why are you sad about that? I thought that’s what you wanted right?”

“No, that’s not what I want,”

“Hmm, so what did you do?”

“Why do you assume I did something?”

“Isn’t it obvious? Why else will she want a divorce if you didn’t do shit, cut to the chase Cross, what happened?”

“Something happened with Ginna and it got to Kathy,”

“What happened? Did you sleep with her? Dude I warned you”

“I didn’t sleep with her, I didn’t but Kathy won’t believe me because of those damn photos,”

“So what happened, what photos? Speak up dude,”

“I will if you will just stop interrupting me,”

I said I was already drowning in sadness, and any little thing can piss me off, fallen asleep last night had been hard, I didn’t sleep much and the alcohol didn’t help either, waking up early despite not getting enough sleep had made everything worst compound with the fact that Kathy still wasn’t talking to me.

“Okay bro, what happened?”

I told him everything that happened without leaving a single detail out, I could tell by his change of expression when I told him what happened with Ginna that he wasn’t pleased either and I couldn’t blame him, if he had told me he did something like that I would have told him off too, but that didn’t mean that his expression didn’t hurt, he was my friend and was supposed to be on my side not judge me.

“I think this is where I should say the ‘I told you so thing,”

He replied when I was done talking, I felt like throwing my glass at him but I resisted, he was right, he did tell me.

“I was a fool,”

“Yes you were, and you were going on about her being important and going as far as saying you will pick her over your wife, so what’s stopping you now? She is giving you an easy way to be with the woman you love or you claim to love, why the sudden change? You should be happy,”

He let out, I could tell he was being serious which made me angry.

“Dude, I don’t want to be with her, I wanna be with my wife, and u didn’t ask you to come here just so you can rub it on my face, I asked you here cuz I need advice, not someone who wants to judge me, I need a friend, not a judge,”

“Well, this friend warned you, and this friend has no advice for you because if you had taken the advice that this friend has given then we won’t be having this conversation, I told you not to do something you will regret and barely a month later, it happened and you want my advice? I don’t have any for you,”

“Then why the fuck did you come here?”

I shouted, pissed beyond words, I saw red, he shouldn’t have shown up here if all he was gonna do is judge me.

“I came because I felt you needed my help, but right now, you don’t need anyone’s help, you made a mess yourself and you should clean it up, man up, give her what she wants,”

“I can’t do that, can’t you see, don’t you understand? I can’t let Katherine go, she is my life, she is the woman I love,”

“Wow,”

He said clapping.

“You finally figured that out, good, good, but too bad it came a little too late, you already messed it up,”

“Are you even my friend? Do you enjoy seeing me miserable? I don’t get it, why are you mocking me, I already know I messed u but I wanna clean up the mess I made and you are the only one I had to talk to without judging me, I guess I was wrong, I am just going to leave,”

I said to him, I couldn’t believe how he was acting, I knew that I messed up but not to this extent that my best friend is mocking me, if that’s what he was going to do, I may as well leave and handle this on my own, I didn’t want my family to find out I fucked up and ruined my marriage if not I would have talked to my mom or dad, but they aren’t gonna be proud of me and I might skip some details with them but with Dean, I can let it all out, I guess he wasn’t the one I should be talking to.

“Sit your stubborn ass down you stupid boy,”

He said holding my hand as I made to leave.

Do you think you are in the position to get mad and leave? You should take everything that is thrown at you for messing up, so sit down and let’s talk,”

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“You weren’t ready to listen to me or help me, I am not God you know, I don’t know everything, I am human, I make mistakes and this was one, I wanna fix it but I don’t know how to go about it and my wife wants to leave me, I don’t want her to so I need someone to tell me something to do to fix it, not someone who will judge me if you are going to help just let me leave.”

I said still standing.

“Honestly dude, no one can give the best advice at a time like this, I won’t lie to you, I am disappointed in you,”

“It’s obvious and even I am disappointed in myself, I thought I had sense but turns out I don’t,”

“Good to know you know, so now to my only advice, don’t sign those papers if you still want her,”

He advised.

“What papers?”

“Seriously dude? I mean the divorce papers she gave you,”

“She hasn’t given me no papers, she just told me last night,”

“What the fuck? Then you still have a chance, I thought she already gave you court papers,”

“No, we started having issues just yesterday,”

“Figures so here is the thing, you throw away whatever pride you have, all those alpha male and macho male shit, just throw it off and get on your knees and grovel,”

He advised.

I nodded listening attentively, I already decided to do away with pride so that wasn’t the hard part here, is convincing her was.

“And don’t you go about talking about how you didn’t sleep with her, we know you didn’t but Kathy isn’t going to believe that, so instead of pushing that, just accept it and beg, she loves you so if you do things right you might win her back,”

“I don’t know Dean, I will do anything to get back on her good side, I love her so much that my life will be meaningless without her in it, her and our kid,”

“You guys are pregnant? Wow, that was quick,”

“Yes, and she was going to tell me but then these while shit happened,”

“Then the more reason to beg and make sure you don’t repeat the same mistake,”

He advised, we talked some more and I found out he was going through some shits with Grace too, but at least his was better than mine, by the time we parted ways and I headed home, my head was a little less Crowded.