GUILT FEELING
I dropped my phone on the floor, not thinking straight. I sat up and laughed crazily, my palm over my face.
I’m such a fool, after everything she did , you still got the heart to miss her, you are really pathetic Bruno.
I pulled the blanket off my body and walked like a zombie into the bathroom to freshen up, for the party but first I gotta make it up to my Grandma.
As a young boy she would always pick a gentleman outfit with slicked shiny hairstyle for me, so I decided to dress up like she would love me for the big party.
After dressing up , I went to the sitting room, and found her waiting for me at the dining table. The food she prepared was there right in front of her, her palm supporting her jaw.
I regretted making her worry, and shutting her out. As soon as she saw me wearing the outfit , her lips twitched and then slightly drew wide open in a smile, I was happy, at least I was able to make her happy with my little trick.
“Well look at you CEO sir!’she teased and got up from where she was seated, she walked to me , and loosened my tie.
Embarrassed, I looked away as she knotted it in the correct way.
“Grandma, I am really….”
“Don’t worry about me my sweet baby, I am so happy you are able to get up on your feet again, looking handsome and….”
She used her fingers to pull my cheeks.
“Can you put on a little smile, it’s a big day for you honey”.
She requested.
I forced my teeth open.
“Come on here..(pulled me along) I made your favorite”.
She took me by the hand and walked to the dining, She made me sit on a chair beside hers and dished a full plate of food for me. I don’t have an appetite but rejecting it will make her feel bad.
“Thanks Grandma”
I replied and smiled at her.
“Come on eating up, soon your guests will be all over you”.
“You seem to love the Beauty of a girl regardless”.
She said after some minutes.
“Maybe you should talk things out with her, and find her reasons, I do like that girl too and I am as devastated as you my dear”.
“I don’t want to talk about her,”I replied slowly.
**JESSI’S POV**
For days now, all I did was drink and drink lots of heavy wines. I wanted to end my life but I owe Beauty an apology and a confession.
Dying now won’t solve anything, I got up from my tears soaked bed and walked straight to the bathroom to wash my face and my head too. My body hurts so much, and my head has this hammering sensation in there that makes me feel like I might go crazy anytime soon.
I took a deep breath and looked up at my reflection. I looked so sick, even a stranger I met once would be able to tell that I am going through lots of shit.
I picked up my toothbrush from the paste holder on the sink. I started brushing, all that was filled in my mind was the thought of how to get Bruno and Beauty back together and prevent them from ever finding out about Mr Hathaway’s plan, but how possible can that be and how strong am I to do that.
My phone vibrated , I was startled by the sound awakening me from my deep thoughts then a notification popped up on the screen.
It was a reminder for the CEO party, which I should be attending in a few minutes.
Talking with Beauty this morning, she may have pretended to be alright but I noticed something off about her voice, she must have cried all night long.
I took a deep breath and went back to my room to undress, I have promised myself that I will never step foot at Mr Hathaway’s Mansion, after what happened to me but if I am going to make things right then I have to tell Bruno about his father’s plan.
I have to attend the party, that’s what I will be doing.
After dressing up, I got a call from our colleague, Kareem.
“Hello Jessi, are you there yet?”
“Not yet Kareem, what’s wrong?”
She sighed.
“I wouldn’t be able to make it to the party, for a good reason though, my mom’s surgery was rescheduled today, I have to stay beside her”.
I rubbed my palm over my face.
“Oh dear! I pray for her successful surgery dear but why are you ..”
“Why am I telling you?”
She cuts in before I could finish my sentence. I nodded slowly in reply.
“Well, you see the boss is very cold these days , he scares me, I can’t possibly explain myself to him, please help me talk to him, you two seem pretty close”.
“What … no.. we are not close”I snapped nervously.
“Don’t lie, we all were there when he asked after Beauty, he seemed pretty cool with you, so please help me girl”.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
“Kareem, seriously I don’t know how, I am also as scared as you , but I will try and explain to him on your behalf”.
“Thanks so much, I owe you!”
She replied happily and hung up.
I can’t possibly face Bruno with my guilt feeling and nervousness, I don’t think I can possibly do that, I sighed deeply.