Chapter 80
Leigh-Ann’s POV
His question came as a bang to my head and I looked up immediately and saw a smirk creep in at the corner of his lips.
I bit my lower lips and looked away. I’m so vulnerable he could read me even till my last letters. I closed my eyes and slowly pulled my hand to his shoulder. It felt wet and hard.
He rounded his left arm on my waist and pulled me closer to himself. He then held my left hand in his right hand.
I breathed in his cologne as it possessed my mind and made it feel muddled. We were so close that I wished I could merge with him and we’ll be one body, two souls.
… And now I know, the key to all heaven is mine…
I hummed the song and we began dancing. It felt like we danced to the songs of soul cause there were no perfect instruments. Just a perfect tune for me.
At first, it felt awkward but then, how perfect could this be?
Still singing and dancing, I withdrew my left hand from Kael’s and wrapped it on his shoulder while he dropped his on my waist.
I looked up at him as I hummed and sang the last verse.
… Hm hmm hm hmm
And now I know…
Kael looked down at me and placed his forehead down on mine.© 2024 Nôv/el/Dram/a.Org.
… The key to all heaven is
mine…
I heaved after I ended the song then did the unimaginable. I stood on my toes and kissed Kael. He didn’t kiss me back and I didn’t stop. I enjoyed the bittersweet flavor from his mouth which tasted like lemonade.
Slowly, I felt him take his hands off my waist. He then took a step away from me, ending the kiss. I stared at him.
“Leigh-Ann…” He called, his voice hoarse but calm. “You’re gonna hurt yourself”
I looked at him and tried reading meanings into his words but I failed. I’m gonna hurt myself, how? Did I really look like someone who would hurt myself?
“I’m not gonna hurt myself” I defended and took a step towards him, covering up the gap he created.
“You don’t know what you’re doing,” He said again and this time, he moved away. Damn! Why was he doing this again? Why was he playing with my emotions?
“Then tell me what i’m doing”
He didn’t respond but walked over to the window to stand. “Tell me how I’m gonna hurt myself,” I added.
“You’re too small and innocent Leigh-Ann” He started and I gasped in surprise. Small and innocent???
“And you don’t know what you’re doing”
“I know what i’m doing Kael. You’re just the one hurting me” I retorted as my hands shook. Why was he always rejecting me huh? Saying I’ll hurt myself when he’s the one hurting me.
He didn’t respond but turned to look at me. He started walking toward me and this time, I didn’t shiver. I was fully prepared to face him squarely.
“You’re mistaken Leigh-Ann, I’d never hurt you. I warned you about this before and am saying it again but if you choose not to listen then you can’t say am the one hurting”
“All I do is to suck whichever flower I find attractive and then, I go for another. Trust me, you wouldn’t wanna be one of them”
So the truth was that he didn’t wanna hurt me and now he’s warned me again, I’m expected to move away but if I didn’t, I can’t blame him for hurting me cause I’m the one hurting myself. Now I understood.
But the question now was why? Why does he have to warn me?
“You’re too small and god-damned innocent and if I’m to give you what you want, I wouldn’t make it any easier. I’ll drain you out till there’s nothing left of you. I’ll ravage every single thing in you so you’ll just try and see” He continued but his voice was different this time, it was so cold and it made me shiver.
“You wouldn’t want that would you?” He asked and I could feel his gaze on me. All it did was hurt so much but why?
This was the first time I was having these actual feelings for any guy. Normally, I detested guys and would have nothing to do with them but now I did, it felt horrible. Especially when he wasn’t feeling the same way about me.
But now I could say that my first love sucks.