Lie To Me

Chapter 19: 19

"Seriously speaking, I realized that you're right, I shouldn't have caged myself in that situation anymore.

I'm following your sermons to me and Hans, and you're right again that I can't get out of this situation

over and over again. I'll run. " I paused then smiled at her. "I was able to leave then, why can't I do it

now? I am now ready and willing, just to calm my heart." I said.

I'm going to face it now.

She smiled too. "Good luck then, I hope this time you can really do it."

"Why not?" I said, arching my brows.

"I know you; I know how fragile you are." She said and laughed afterwards. This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

"Come on, who knows, when Russel started crying and begging you to come back, you’ll give in. That,

one 'I miss you, Love. I still love you' and you'll be crawling back." She added.

I rolled my eyes.

Sometimes, I just want to swear on her.

"You're stupid in that part too." I said. Laughed well.

I shook my head.

"I've learned. It's not because we love that we will accept all their foolishness. Feelings are too precious

to be ignored and wasted." I said.

Enough is enough.

I already learned my lesson, in a very hard way.

Reysa did not comment on that. She just shook her head then smiled at me more.

I know she believes in me. Even though it has taken so long, I am often very annoyed because my

complaint is pure but nothing is being done. She stayed patient on me and waited for me to be this

decided. I know I will always get my back and I to her too.

"But you still love me?" She asked again.

I looked at him but he just laughed even more.

"I don't know about you." I said and then I dropped the call.

I have buried that along with the past. Stop. Maybe it's hard for me to forget him, but not because I still

feel for him.

I have re-evaluated myself over and over, especially after we met again. And doing so, I realized that I

was not stuck because I still love him the way I have loved him before.

If there is anything left, you just have to respect what the two of us went through.

And that was the funniest about this situation. I laughed at myself for that.

It's just funny that after everything, here I was, still respecting the person who never did the same deed

for me.

Ironic.

But then, through that, I learned that the only reason that kept me to be like this is I was still seeking for

answers.

Your answer to the reasons he can't answer.

But not now, little by little, I get it when I can’t really get it and I don’t want to insist anymore.

I will not be blessed e. Even if I surrender to him and the sea cries, he still has nothing to answer. He

still can't tell me why I'm still not enough after all I've done.

He said I was more than enough, but still, he chose to cheat on me.

Just really stupid.

And no matter what his plan is to approach me, I'll make sure I don't lose in the end.