Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2

“I hurt him”

** Episode-280 "I hurt him"**

** Celeste's POV:**

It's been few hours

I am sitting here on the deck of this lake. I am hugging my knees... I wiped my

tears few times but now I just don't care.

I moved my hairs

away from my face, as I look here and there blankly.. the sun is about to set...

and I don't know what am I thinking...

I shouldn't have said

that him, I know whatever he said or did was right.. I am the one who stood at

the wrong corner the entire time... but I couldn't help it.... suddenly everything

got unbearable for me... and I lashed out... I hurt the one who cares for me the Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org

most.

I am sorry Ernest....

I want to say this

to him, but I have no guts to do this... I don't....

My phone rang and I

noticed my phone on the table.. I stretched my hand to answer it, it's my Dad.

I answered the call,

Dad said, "Cele.... I heard you are on vacation.."

I whispered, "Yes.."

Dad said, "it must be

hard for you to move on... but baby, life is all about chance.... Take this chance

to smile....." tear stream down, I couldn't help it....

Dad sad again, "just

forget everything as a nightmare,... anyways...can you pass the phone to Prince? I

need to talk to him about something...."

I broke down into

cries, Dad panicked hearing this... he asked, "Cele... what happened? Why are you

crying like that?... baby.. talk to me.... ok, girl now I am panicking... talk to

me!"

I said in sobs,

"Dad.... I... I hurt him... today...... he brought me here to... fix myself but... I said

something awful to him... I am really a bad... bad person.... How am I going.. to..." I

cried more....

I heard Dad,

"Celeste...listen... first... stop crying. And now listen to me... give yourself and

him time.... he loves you a lot... he will not be angry on you for long... just make

yourself happy he will be happier... ok..."

I nodded and said on

the phone, "Ok... I will call you later.... Thanks gangster dad..."

I heard him, "Take

care.."

After 30 more

minutes, I walked in the house. I don't see him.... actually I have no guts to

face him right now. I decided to get some water for me and maybe cook something

for him. but as I went in the kitchen I noticed the food... I sigh... he is

thoughtful even when he is angry.... or it's just me who got selfish this time... I

sat there and attempted to eat the food...

The food is good but

somehow I couldn't eat alone especially after what happened.... I remember how he

made me have every meal since the miscarriage.... I kept the food as I failed to

finish it.

I walked upstairs

and I noticed the room is empty.... I stood at the door of the room and just

tried to find a way to make everything ok.

I got in the room, and looked around since I

didn't see much when he was showing me around earlier. I walked to the huge

window as I see a figure running on the beach under the street light.

Ernest is running at

this hour, he must be really hurt and angry. I let a deep exhale... I messed up

things... really messed up.

Even when we fight

he never leaves me alone for whole day, he finds a way to contact me or talk to

me.... he keeps his anger aside... but this time... things are different... I don't

know how will I fix this or even say sorry.

I got in the bed

curling in the comforter thinking to myself.. what can I do to fix this. will

he ever talk to me like before... will it be ever be same as before.... I cried to

myself.

I see no answer and

no path... and somehow I could not forgive myself for being ignorant in case of

the baby, only if went to the doctor that day then.. it might be still with us...

I am so messed up right now.... I keep making stupid mistakes every time and I

don't know how to answer.