51. I am yours
I help Jason find some files he needs for his conference meeting. The meeting was about to start, and he realized he could not find the documents for it. He didn’t want to keep the person at the other end waiting, so he asked me to come and look for the paper while he started the meeting.
After I am done helping him, I walk out of his office to find Vivienne. I knock on her office door but get no response. I turn the doorknob, and the door doesn’t open. It’s locked. Did she leave work already? I switch on my phone to send her a text asking her where she is but stop once a message from her arrives.
“Eleanor, in case you come back and don’t find me. I stepped out for an emergency. I will be back soon,” Her text reads.
“Ok, no problem,” I reply
I walk away from her door and walk back to my desk to continue working.
Halfway through work, I feel like drinking something. I pick up my purse and take the elevator down. I don’t feel like drinking the coffee in the office. There is a new café close to work that sells good coffee. I am on my way there.
It’s not far, so it does not take me time to get there. It’s midday, so it’s not filled with people. I order a cup of coffee, and on my way out, I bump into someone. I was checking emails on my phone, so I was not looking at where I was going. I need to stop using my phone while walking. I always bump into someone.
“Sorry,” I say, lifting my head away from the person’s clothes. I was lucky my right hand had my phone in it and not my cup of coffee. I would have spilled my coffee on the person once I bumped into them. I would have had to pay for dry cleaning on a suit I am sure cost more than my salary.
“It’s fine,” The person says. The voice sounds familiar.
“Alex,” I say, a little surprised to see him. I haven’t seen him since that night at the club. The last time he called me was the day Jason spoke to him. he hasn’t tried contacting me since then.
“How are you doing, Eleanor?” He asks, smiling softly
“I am good. How are you?”
“I am good too.”
“Are you busy? There is something I would like to speak to you about?” I haven’t apologized to him for getting him punched. If I didn’t call him to meet me at the club that night, Jason wouldn’t have punched him. Jason won’t even be threatening to ruin his life if he never met me. I feel like I am bad luck for such a nice man like him.
“No, I am not. Is there something you want to talk about?”
“Yes, there is. Please let’s sit and talk,” I say, pointing to one of the free tables in the café.
“Sure,” He says, walking to the table. He pulls out the chair for me to sit down before he takes his seat. “What would you like to talk about?”
“I want to apologize.”
“For what, you haven’t done anything wrong to me.”
“I have. I shouldn’t have called you that day to meet me at the club. Jason and I were having problems. What I did was wrong. I am sorry for the troubles I caused that day.”
“You don’t have to apologize. It’s all in the past.”
“Still, I am sorry I called you, and I am sorry you got punched because of me.”
“You are forgiven,” I can’t believe he is not angry about it. He is such a good and understanding person. I genuinely wonder what caused him and Jason to stop been friends. I want to ask him, but I think it’s best I ask Jason.
“Since that’s been cleared up, I will take my leave. Thank you for listening to me,” I say, standing up.
“Anything for you, Eleanor,” He says, standing up too
“Goodbye, Alex. I wish you all the best the world can offer. You truly deserve it,” I say, walking out of the café.
After a stressful day at work, Jason and I head back to his apartment together. Vivienne took the rest of the day off, so I could not find out what she wanted to talk about.
I take a shower once we arrive home and eat dinner made by Jessica. I walk out of the bathroom to join Jason in bed after brushing my teeth.
“What are you doing?” I ask Jason as I get under the covers
“Just replying to some messages,” Jason says, using his phone. He has already changed into his pajamas, which consists of only bottoms. I don’t mind since I get to see his gorgeous body while falling asleep.
“Do you have a minute?”
“Sure, what’s up,” He says, taking his eyes away from his phone. He puts his full attention on me.
“I met Alex today,” I say, biting my lips. I am a little worried he will be angry, but I needed to tell him so he would understand my next question.
“Oh,”
“And it got me thinking. Alex is such a good person. Why do you hate him?”
“He might seem like a good person to you, but it does not mean he is.”
“What did he do to cause you guys to stop been friends?”
“It’s something I don’t like to talk about.”
“You don’t have to tell me. I just felt like I needed to know, but it’s fine.”
“Thank you for understanding,” He says, pecking my forehead.
“Yeah,” I say, picking up my phone from the bedside table to use it. I turn away from him as I feel my eyes sting with tears. I don’t know why, but I feel hurt that he can’t open up to me about his past even till now. I know we haven’t been dating for long, but we have known each other for almost a year. I feel I deserve to know what caused him and Alex’s friendship to break. Even if I can’t date Alex, I would have remained friends with him, but I know Jason won’t like that. I feel I need to know why. I am his girlfriend, and as much as I don’t want us to have issues. I can’t continue to blindly follow his wishes regarding things related to Alex.
I am getting comfortable in bed to go to sleep after using my phone for an hour or so when I hear Jason’s voice.
“Her name was Christine,” He whispers, but I hear it. Did he notice I was hurt by him not telling me why he and Alex are not friends? I think he did because he tried making conversation with me for the past hour, but I was not in the mood.
I turn my body and face him.
“She was my wife, and Alex raped her,” Jason’s words shocked me to the bones.
I feel my eyes widen so much I am surprised they are still attached to my face. I just heard the most shocking sentence Jason could ever tell me. He was married. When? For how long where is his ex-wife. Is she dead? Did they divorce? Alex raped her. I can’t believe it. The same Alex I know would abuse a woman in such a way.
“It’s shocking, right, but it’s true. I got married when I was very young. She was the first woman I ever loved, and Alex is the reason she left me.”
“Why” I finally voice out. His words are making me speechless.
I am trying to think about why someone as amazing as Alex would rape a woman, not just any woman, his friend’s wife. I am not even sure he is amazing anymore after what I just heard. What could have caused him to do such an evil thing? He is a handsome man; getting a woman into his bed is not hard. He does not even have to woo them. He has enough money to make any gold digger sleep with him. Why Alex, why, I ask no one in particular, why.
“I also don’t know Eleanor, but that’s why I hate him. If he never raped my wife, she won’t have left me.”
“I don’t understand. Did she get pregnant?”
“No, she left me because I reminded her of the man who raped her. Alex was my best friend. We did almost everything together, and he was around my wife a lot. She said every time she saw me, she remembered him so she could not stay married to me. That’s also the reason I stopped dating. The divorce broke my heart too much, so I swore to never fall in love again.”
“Wow, I am sorry you had to go through that” I move closer to him and place my hand on his face.
“It’s fine. It’s all in the past. I don’t even think about it anymore,” He says, placing his hand above mine.
“That’s good. If you don’t mind me asking, how old were you when you got married.”
“22, we went to the university together and got married as soon as we were done.”
“Wow, you were so young. How long did the marriage last?”
“2 years”
“I am so sorry you went through all that.”
“As I said, it’s fine. I am over it.”
“If you are over it, why do you still hate Alex?”
I wish he would be over it because one of the best ways to heal is to move on. The pain he must have felt to lose the love of his life so young must have crushed him. It even scarred him and made him a player for 13 years. I can’t imagine if I didn’t enter his life. Would he still be a player by now? Of course, he would except a woman like me entered his life. I can’t believe I made him want to date again. That’s so amazing.
“He wants you. It’s bad enough he ruined my first marriage. He wants to take away my only hope of happiness again. I will be dammed if I let him take you away from me.”
“Don’t worry, he is not taking me anywhere,” I say, smiling. Since we started dating, I started liking Jason’s possessiveness over me. I don’t know if it’s because it makes him sound jealous, but I just love it.
“Yes, he is not because you are mine,” He says, pulling me closer to him.
“Yes, I am yours,” I say and seal my lips with his in a passionate kiss.
After tonight I can never look at Alex the same way. I am starting to understand how his ex-wife felt. She must have always remembered the events of the day any time Jason appeared before her. That must have been horrible.
I am so glad Jason told me why he hates Alex. Now he does not even have to ask me to stay away from him because I would on my own. This is what I wanted. It’s good, he told me. I am happy he opened up to me without me having to ask him too many times.
It’s been a week since Jason traveled. I miss him terribly every day. We try our best to talk to each other every day, but it’s a bit hard because of the time difference and work. I am still going to work even though he is not around. I am even currently at the office right now.
I am working by my desk when the elevator dings. I wonder who could be here. Most of Jason’s associates know he is not around, so they hardly come to the office. Only a few unimportant ones drop by to look for him. I don’t even bother to look away from my computer screen as the person walks towards my desk.
“Hello Eleanor,” A voice I haven’t heard since Jason and I started dating
“Tracy,” I say, surprised to see her.
“Please inform Jason I am here.”
“Sorry, Jason is not in.”
“When will he be back?”
“He is not in the country.”
“Oh, that’s going to be a problem.”
“Why?” I ask confused
“Because I need to tell him he is going to be a daddy.”Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org
“What?” I ask, blinking my eyes so fast my vision starts to blur. I need to make sure I am seeing well before I even check if I am hearing well.
“Say hello to your daddy secretary, baby,” Tracy says, unbuttoning her coat to reveal a tiny baby bump.
I look at her stomach as a million thoughts start to roam in my head. I don’t even know which thought to process first.