Surrender Your Sensations

The confession we had about each other’s feelings ignited the desire and pleasure. He loves me and I love him too. There’s a mutual understanding and feelings between us and I … I couldn’t get any better than now.

At some point, I forgot about everything. It’s just me and Rupert and our little bubble.

When we got to his condo unit, he immediately picked me up. I was cupping his face with my both hands as he carried me straight to his bedroom. I just dropped the bag I was carrying on the floor and I was the one who removed the guitar hanging behind him.

I was staring at him and so was he.

“Do you really see me now?” His breathing was fast and shallow, intently staring at me.

“This is a miracle,” I murmured, the pad of my thumb touching the piercing on his soft lips and my gaze memorizing every feature of his face. “I don’t know what happened. But I just suddenly saw you. I see you, my Rockstar.”

I heard the bedroom door click after Rupert closed it. He slowly approached the bed and lowered me there. Then, he was quick to strip off his clothes and I watched him hungrily.

My heart was beating fast as I watched him. He stripped his clothes slowly while holding my gaze with his. My hands fisted the sheets when Rupert took off the only clothing he was wearing; he slid down his boxers and his hard and long manhood greeted me.

I swallowed as I watched his proud length pointing towards me. The tension inside me was sending tingling sensations down to the center of my navel. The fact that I could see the lust and love mixing in Rupert’s brown eyes was burning my already anticipating body.

Tonight was definitely going to be different for the two of us.

“Time to show yourself to me, Meredith Kaye. Take off your clothes for me, Sweetie,” Rupert asked. His voice was hoarse and low. I could feel the heat emitting from his naked body.

But I want something else to happen tonight. I wanted to show him how much I love him.

“Let me take the lead, Rupert.”

He was shocked by what I said but I couldn’t wait for his reaction. Despite the trembling of my legs, I forced myself to stand up from the bed.

I saw how Rupert’s eyes stared at me with so much hunger and desire. I smiled at him before my eyes roamed from his handsome face, to his broad chest and then to his mighty hardened length.

I bit my bottom lip when Rupert gasped.

“Meredith…” He immediately closed his eyes and raised his face to the ceiling when my hand wrapped around his manhood as I stood in front of him.

“I’ll give you heaven tonight, Rupert,” I whispered before slightly squeezing his throbbing manhood.

“Shit.”

I was still not satisfied and I bent down slightly to suck his right nipple.

“Holy shit, Meredith Kaye.”

I was watching his face while nibbling and sucking his nipples, alternately. Of course, my two hands were getting faster and faster playing with his manhood and the two balls below it.

I could hear his muffled groans and deep sighs. I watched him carefully; how he moaned and groaned because of how much I could pleasure him; and how he would beg for me to do more.

The happiness and pleasure I was feeling right now was the first time I felt it. I have someone now to love me as I love him too. And there’s no more satisfying than this miracle, to see the face of the man I love.

I guess my psychologist was right when he said- Prosopagnosia is a brain defect. Yes, it’s not a disorder but it’s one of the manifestations of the complex and mysterious nature of the human brain. To this day, we still do not know much about the human brain. It’s still a mystery how prosopagnosia is actually triggered and how its mechanism is- how a person does not see or remember the faces of those with whom he or she meets.

But seeing Rupert after years of not being able to see anyone’s face was a miracle.

I don’t know how but I’m sure of how I feel about this man. I never felt so sure about anyone even to myself. But Rupert … I guess, he was a different case.

“W-Wait. What are you going to do, Meredith?”

I grinned at Rupert before pushing him onto the bed until he was now sitting on it. Then I stood in front of him and took off my clothes one by one.

He was cursing under his breath as he watched me like a hawk. He was tugging on his piercing with his teeth and that was so sexy. I could see the lust on Rupert’s face. His cheeks were red and his eyes were sharp and melting my insides.

“Let me taste you now, my Meredith.” He gulped when I finally removed my remaining clothes. His manhood was so erect in between his slightly parted legs as he sat on the bed. “Fuck. I want you now.”

I grinned wider and then picked up the bra I took off. Yes. I was wearing a brassiere tonight and I was grateful about that. “Let’s play first, Rupert. Then you can take me from behind. Don’t you like that?” I playfully asked him before I parted his legs even more. I stood in between them and then, using the bra in my hand, I covered Rupert’s eyes.

“Damn. I’m so hard. Why are you torturing me?” He heaved a deep sigh. “Damn it. I love you, Meredith.”

I giggled. “I love you too.” Then I kissed his lips.

“Let me go first and then let’s play?” Then, he pulled down the bra cups covering his eyes, looking at me expectantly.

I shook my head. “No. I want to play. I want to take a lead, Rupert. I’ll do it. You’ll just enjoy it now.” I returned the bra cups to cover his eyes. He was blindfolded using the cups of my bra and he didn’t remove it this time.

I could feel his anticipation. His chest was rising rapidly and his manhood was so erect. I stared at his proud length and how the veins of it actually make it more pleasurable to look at.

I gulped before I finally took in how Rupert looked right now. So, this was how I looked every time Rupert would blindfold me. Indeed, it was such a hot and arousing scene. I could already feel the wetness of my femininity just because of how Rupert looks.

“Thank you for letting me lead tonight, Rupert. I’ll take care of it, just moan,” I said, playfully, kneeling in between his thighs. I immediately felt Rupert’s hands on my head as I started to eat his manhood.

He groaned loudly when I spit on his length and then licked it. Moments later, my head was moving up and down on his manhood and his both hands were gently massaging my breasts. My hand went to my throbbing core and I played with it while giving Rupert a head. My fingers moved up and down of my wet folds as Rupert’s hips started thrusting in and out of my mouth. The bed was shaking because of his movements.

“Meredith … Enough … Ahhh … I-I’m coming.”ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

I sucked him- until he came inside my mouth. He sighed, his hands were caressing my hair as I licked him clean.

After making Rupert come, I stood up. I stared at him. His mouth was slightly parted, heaving deep breaths, while his eyes were still covered with my bra. My fingers clasped a handful of his hair and then I sat on his lap. I felt the head of his manhood in the opening of my core. I couldn’t resist it. I rubbed myself on his hard length as I grind on his lap. “R-Rupert.”

Damn. This is heaven.

I couldn’t stand it anymore and I pushed Rupert to lay horizontally on the bed. I moved myself until I was sitting on his chest, my wet core was in front of his mouth. My back arched when his tongue automatically invaded my folds. “Oh gosh … Yes … There … T-There.”

I grunted as his hand crawled to my chest. His hands cupped both of my breasts, gently caressing them as his tongue lashed in and out of my core. I squirmed and seconds later, I reached my release.

I fell on top of him because of the intense pleasure after reaching my climax. I was still recovering from the body-shuddering feeling and still wasn’t in my right mind when his manhood entered me … Slowly … And deep.

He grabbed the cheeks of my behind with both of his hands as he bucked his hips upward to move in and out of my core.

I growled loudly as he slammed himself to me. Though his eyes were blinded, he knew what to do- he knew how to simply stimulate my sensations.

“Shit. Meredith Kaye, so tight,” he groaned.

From lying flatly on my stomach above him, I sat up. Our sexes didn’t disconnect with the change of position but I moaned on the feeling of how he buried deeper because of the new position.

Then, I rode him. I slammed my sex into his manhood, groaning with so much pleasure. He was buried deep- so deep that he was hitting that exact delicious spot. As I rode him, I pulled down the bra from his eyes. When our gazes met, my insides automatically clenched and we both moaned.

“Rupert!” I came again.

I could see the intensity of lust in Rupert’s eyes. When my vaginal walls clenched around his length, his mouth formed an ‘o’ and his eyes dilated with pure lust.

“It’s my turn, Sweetie.”

Rupert removed me from his top and made me kneel on four on top of the bed. Then, he entered me from behind and slammed himself mercilessly.

“Ah. Ah. Uhmnn …” My back arched as Rupert’s hand reached for the sensitive flesh in the middle of my womanhood. He played with my clit like a guitar while thrusting in and out of my kitty from behind.

My long hair was all over my face when my weak arms failed to support my position. My face sank into the bed’s mattress and if Rupert hadn’t just caught my waist, my legs might have fallen as well.

He thrusts fast and rough.

“Meredith Kaye … Ohhh …”

My moans were muffled by the bedsheets and I came again and again, before Rupert pulled himself out and slapped my behind three times.

“Oh gosh!” My face looked up again because of the mixture of pleasure and pain from that blow. He slapped my butt cheeks while still sliding the tip of his manhood, up and down, on my throbbing and wet folds. He was not entering me but he was teasing me and it was such a turn on. “Ahhh Rupert! I’m coming again!”

I came.

And then I felt Rupert’s release soaking my behind. The sticky fluid was dripping from my behind down to the back of my thighs.

“I love you, Meredith Kaye.” Both of his arms wrapped around my waist to pull my upper body up. I knelt on the bed as I leaned on his shoulder. I think he was kneeling too behind me as I could feel his tired manhood pressed against my wet behind. “I love you.” He buried his face on my hair and his hug tightened.

“How about Ava?” I found myself asking, looking for assurance.

“Her memories will stay but I know my love for her has finally accepted the fact that she’s no longer here and I need to let her go.” His lips rained kisses on my hair. I leaned against his bare chest comfortably. “Ava was never mine and it’s selfish for me to hold on to her when all she wanted was to rest.”

I smiled at what he said. I looked back to face him. Our gazes met. He was really a nice guy.

His eyes never left mine when he said the next things he said, “I want you to know that I loved you as Meredith. Not to replace Ava. This might be too sudden- but … Love is love. It was never predictable. . ”

“Do you love me from the bottom of your heart, Rupert?”

Rupert kissed my hair and his hand went up to my right breast. I stared at him when I felt his hand tracing the scar of my previous surgery on that part. His fingertips were slightly tracing the vertical surgery scar on the side of my right breast. “In the deepest part of my heart, there is love that is meant just for you and you alone.”

I stared at him. My heart was beating rapidly and my emotions were welling up. With all the bad things that were happening now; I couldn’t believe I would have Rupert to clear the raging storm even for a while.

I reached for his face and just stared at his eyes. I’m just so glad I can see him now. At least, if my cancer comes back- and I fail to win for the second time- I will not regret not seeing his face.

“I’m happy that I can see you now, Rupert. Thank you for bringing me calmness and peace.”

“Why are you crying?” He was quick to notice the tear I shed. He immediately turned me around to face him.

In the middle of the bed, he sat on the mattress and made me sit on his lap. We’re both naked but the lust wasn’t there anymore. It was just warmth and love.

I leaned my head on his shoulder and I placed his hand on my right breast, right where I could feel the slight ache from the new lumps there. The warmth coming from his rough hand made the ache to subside. The pad of his thumb was caressing my scar.

He let me cry and didn’t ask why. He just let me cry and that’s what I need.

Like a child I hugged him while crying. His free hand was caressing my hair and I could feel his lips kissing my temple, as if reassuring me that things would be okay.

But I know, it’s going to be hard.

And now, I feel twice as scared. I don’t want my cancer to come back. I don’t want to hurt the new person who loves me because of my degenerate health.

Why now? Why when I am already living happily?

“Don’t cry … I love you, Meredith Kaye from the deepest part of my heart. I will love all the imperfections, scars and difficulties.”

My cries grew louder. I don’t want to see him like my Dad, Aunt Bernadeth, Eian, Bailey and my friends crying because of me.

“Hey, Sweetie. Is something wrong with you? I’m a bit scared now. Please stop crying.”

I gripped his hand, the one that was on my right breast, tightly. I guided his hand on the lump in my breast and made him feel it. I winced as his thumb passed the lump in my chest.

That’s when he stiffened.

And I cried even more.

“I’m scared … I-I’m scared of leaving you too, Rupert.”

He immediately caged me in his warm embrace. Both of his arms protectively hugged my shaking body. It was a very tight hug- it was warm and sad at the same time.

“No. I won’t let you leave. No one is leaving,” he whispered and he consoled me. His arms protectively hugged me until I fell into a deep slumber, wishing that God could hear my plea and may He grant my wish- I hope the tumor wasn’t malignant.