Novel Square
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Morgan pov.
Trust is a fragile thing. I've known it my entire life and yet, the reality of it has never been as clear to me as it is now. Only, I never thought I would be questioning the people closest to me. As I work with Xavier, I'm aware of every single thing Rain is feeling and it's distracting because he's talking to soft for me to know what's going on. As quickly as the excitement of finally programming the robots for our system came it fled the moment, I felt the shift in Rain's demeanour. The murky part of his brain seems even darker now and I fear that once it's revealed I will be broken beyond what even Casey can fix.
"Should we take a break? Come back after lunch?” The Fairie asks and I nod. Bing needs time to upload all the changes in the systems anyway so we might as well go eat. Rain moves when I move, and I allow my hand to grab his, taking comfort in his touch even though my insides feel like they're going to explode with all the uncertainty going on around me.
"You're hiding something from me." I mutter as we leave the room. I don't blink us to the dining room, we haven't talked. Not really and we're not going to get any time if I warp space for us to move faster.NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.
"I am." Something inside of me relaxes at the fact that he's at least not lying about that. "Trust me, it's better if you don't know." I want to trust him, everything in me feels wrong the moment doubt towards him enters my mind but ignoring what's wrong between us isn't going to help us.
"We're not talking. You're hiding things. We're not even..." I trail off, thinking to the kiss I gave him earlier. Touching isn't our issue, and I don't think I expect us to be jumping back into trying to have a baby but there's been nothing beyond holding hands. We don't even sleep at the same time now and I'm always restless.
"We're fine." Rain insists and I wish I could feel as sure as he sounds. "We almost died, you lost our pup, things keep happening. Sinclair, Torren, the robots. I'm not expecting you to jump back into things like nothing happened to you. I'm here, sweetheart. I love you." The words wash over all the wounded parts of me and while it does nothing to heal them, it soothes them enough for me to breathe a little bit easier.
"I love you." I promise. That is at least something I can trust with everything inside of me. I love Rain. Nothing is ever going to change it. He stops s just before we enter the dining room, pulls me into his arms and kisses the top of my head. "No matter what happens, I will always protect you." The words lock a promise in our bond, sealing it securely. I allow myself to reveal in the tender moment before we realize each other and enter the room. My appetite goes away the moment I see Magnus seated next to Isa.
"I think we should take our lunch to go." I mutter, going to turn around but Benjamin calls out to me before we can leave.
"No, just stay. Sit down and let's have a meal that isn't filled with drama." There's a hardness in his tone that leave no room for arguing, no matter how much I want to.
"Fuck you." He simply smiles and motions for us to take a seat and we do. I end up between River and Rain, across from Magnus who I attempt to ignore.
"I read in a book the other day that Fairies can jump between universes." River tells me as we start dishing up. I catch Ragna grabbing an entire casserole of stuffed mushrooms and briefly wonder if Sinclair starved him.
"Why are you telling me this?" River doesn't simply just share information with me. There's always something she thinks she reads about that will somehow stop this war from coming. It's not hard to figure out how worried she is but she has nothing to worry about. There is no way I'm going to let anything happen to her. She may have annoyed the hell out of me at first, out right hated me and I would not put it past her that she attempted to murder me, but I love her because Rain loves her.
"Can't you just find a new universe and we can all go there and start over?" I shake my head, and her shoulders visibly drops. "Well, why not?" She whines and I chuckle, finding her cute.
"You know, sometimes I think you're so very smart and other times I realize how much of a baby you really are." She glares at me, blowing up her cheeks, unconsciously proving my point. "We can't just run away from this." I tell her, turning serious. "If we run away from this, we will spend the rest of our lives running away from things when they get too hard. We have to fight for the way we want to live. If we don't, we will fall apart because we'll question what would have been forever and it'll rot us from the inside out. So, no matter how scared we are, we have to face this." I caress her cheek with my thumb, smiling a little when she nods, albeit reluctantly. Rain gives me a soft smile, rubbing the back of my neck and I return it, feeling at ease for the first time in a while.
"You would make a good mother one day." My body freezes at Ragna's words, joints locking and I swear my blood stops running though my veins. Rain's fingers still on my body and the agony that flares through our bond is enough to render me weak.
"What did you say?" I slowly meet his gaze, daring him to say it again and of course he doesn't disappoint.
"I'm just saying. You're so good with her." He points his knife in River's direction, stabbing his fork in the mushroom and brining it to his lips, chewing it some. "You'll make a good mother someday." He finishes his thought and then he's choking on his food before everything he's eaten comes back up as my magic squeezes around him and then I'm floating in the air, feeling like I'm out of control of my body. I look down at the people seated at the table, fear clear on their faces and it takes me to look at myself in the glass to realize why. I'm glowing a bright blue, my hair having grown twice its length in the span of a few seconds but that's not the concerning part. The concerning part is that it looks like I'm going to burst into pieces and just when I think I won't, I do and everything goes dark.