Yearning For The Badboy Mafia’s Love

CALISTA RAYMONDS

“What if I didn’t want to?” I questioned him and he turn to look at me then I heard him chuckle.

Why is he acting like everything is funny when it isn’t? Or maybe this is just a prank they’ve pulled up on me.

But it couldn’t be, Raymonds was out there with this Luciano. There’s no way he’ll just show up to pull a prank on me while Chase sits her feeling calm and not bothered about anything.

“You’ve gat to talk to your father about it then. ” He told me and I just nodded and looked away.

I have a lot of question I want to ask him and I need answers to them. My eyes moved to look at him once more and his face holds no remorse. He didn’t care at all.

“Chase …” I called on him slowly and he turn to look at me raising his eyebrows in question.

“What?”

I swallowed and stare at my foot. How can I ask him if he was actually going to date me or everything that happened are just an erosion?

Could I have fall helplessly in love with him that I forgot my brain with me.

Mafia’s….!

Oh this Mafia are never as easy as you think they are. Everyone feels like Mafia are all after dating and after women but Chase proved me wrong.

He is never ready to get serious with me. Because he’s a Mafia.

“Lucia…” I heard a voice behind us.

I looked up to see Luciano- my father, standing there with his hand in his pocket. My eyes moved to Chase who just stood up and without looking at me turn to walk away.

He stopped in front of Luciano and it seems they’ve got something to say to eachother, then he walks away.

Luciano starts approaching me and I just looked away and start playing with my finger nervously.

I have lived my 15 fucking years of live apart from him, why didn’t he come earlier? Why did he gave me up and messed up my life?

He’s the reason things seems worst in my life… Why hadn’t he come sooner! I don’t see myself believing he’s my father. It’s so fuckin hard.

“Lucia…” He called again and sat next to me, but I know better to shift, away from him.

Lucia! This fuckin name.

He named me after his name? But I have never been called Lucia Profaci ever! My name is Calista Raymonds, or maybe that was what I’m made to believe my name is.

“Are you ready to go home? You just got discharged.” He told me.

I looked at him and he was trying to avoid my eyes, much better.

He should be so much ashamed of himself. And home? Am I ever ready to know what my new home will look like, apart from Chase who had seem to be the better part of me.

It’s really hard to have Mafia’s fall in love, is it enough time to give up on Chase and believe there’s never a chance of us being together?

“Home?… ” I muttered to him and he nodded.

Now, I’m boiling in anger. My silence, I feel like I’m ready to speak up. To tell him what’s going on in my mind! To let him know how the fuck I feel… I was trying to hold it back but can I?

“Are you gonna tell me why I ended up with the Raymonds? You dumped me! You gave up on me and come back expecting me to run into your hands and give you a hug?”

I wasn’t shouting or yelling, surprisingly I’m calm. So calm that it feels like just a normal conversation, but I’m hurting. I’m in pain!

It’s like my heart was set on fire.

This time, it wasn’t because of my new family .. it was because of Chase Draven Gotti! I’m gonna be apart from him, he already given up on me like it was nothing.

How long had I tried to make things better between us?

I had to learn a little on how to shot from Rowan because I wanted him to believe I can protect myself if that’s what he wanted.

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“I understand you’re mad at me. But trust me, I’ll do my best to make things right. I’ll never let you go this time around and I’ll stand by you till the rest of my life.”

Was that a promise? A promise I should believe? I have never had someone made a promise to me and I’m afraid if that promise is ever going to be kept.

I didn’t want to do this! I don’t want to give him a chance easily but he’s my father isn’t he? He’s my real father and I can never runaway from him….!

“Where’s Raymond?” It’s hard calling out that name.. realizing he’s not even my father but I own him alot.

He gave my life a meaning, he made sacrifices to him.

Could this also be the reason why he gave me to Chase to pay up a debt? Perhaps because there’s something going on and he though I’d be more safe in the hands of the Gotti’s.

“He’s outside the hospital… You wanna talk to him?”

I nodded negatively. I felt his hand on mine and I turn to look at him, this time I looked into his eyes and I could see this pain… He regretted his action.

I didn’t imagine myself doing this but I ended up hugging him in tears.

My life had taken a different turn. I need to accept the new identity of mine, the identity that I’m Lucia Profaci.

With a whole Mafia business to take care of. I’m a Mafia queen.

How ridiculous could that have been?

That I’d get into the Mafia business someday.. as much as I hate it but I feel there’s need to accept who I am.

Chase gave up on me already, I’m ready to do everything to make him believe I can be the better for him..

He’s either mine… Or he’s no one’s. It’s now an obsession.